“Man Up”

A phrase that I’ve never liked. As if saying those words will evoke an action/response. As if such an action or inaction makes you less manly. I hate those two words. It’s akin to saying, “bitch, get over yourself and just do it.” But I need those to resonate in my brain. Cause my inaction is literally killing me. It’s not like I’m even asking myself for much. All I need to do, all I want to do is just talk to her on a regular basis. In order to do that, I need to say hi to her, make small talk, ask her about her vacation/weekend. Whatever. That’s it.

When I see her, I talk to her. It’s as simple as that. That’s the first step. Worry about getting her number, taking her out, all that shit later. Who cares if I jumble my words together? Who cares if I can’t get a complete thought out? A lot of people are awkward, a lot of people get over it and move on. At the very least I can say I tried. Who can I blame for missing an opportunity when I don’t take the opportunity? No one but myself. Just think it, and do it. Simple as that. She just came back from vacation. Ask her how it was, where she went. There’s almost no conversation starter that’s easier than this.