I used to be so naive
So unaware of how things worked
But I was stubborn
Thought I knew best
My opinion was the only one that mattered
I knew better than the rest
My pride would be my downfall
My hubris sealed my fate
The wisdom of a hundred men
Could not compare to one young in age
“I am king, hear me roar!”
I would pound my chest
I always wanted a pat on the back
Thought I deserved endless praise
Full of delusion, full of jealous conceit
I thought I was the shit, as teenagers often do
Thought I was the center of the universe
Thought that I was always on your mind

But little did I know
Not even a seed of thought
Not even a blip on the radar
I was a nobody
Out of sight, out of mind
No one even knew my name
No one could pair me with a face
I was everyone and no one
Just a generic face
I was never meant for the foreground
Never meant to be a star
I only sought attention because I didn’t know my place
Misunderstood by all, including myself
Didn’t know what I was meant for, couldn’t save myself
I let my problems fester
Let them grow to immense size
I focused on the problem and never looked for solutions
Couldn’t even do the bare minimum
Couldn’t see past my pride
I knew that I was broken, knew I was in pain
But I didn’t want to look for answers
So of course nothing changed
Until I drilled to the root everything would remain the same
I was young and I was dumb

But at some point I learned
At some point I let go of my ego and my pride
At some point I admitted that I didn’t have all the answers
At some point I realized that there was so much more to learn
At some point I grew up and that was enough