It’s hard for me to see the forest for the trees
Too caught up in the details that I lose sight of the goal
It’s rough out here, expecting more than I’m shown
It’s rough out here, being on my own
I thought things would play out differently
I thought I was living according to my destiny

Am I just a fool?
Trying to pursue a dream that’s unattainable?
I thought I was doing something that was meaningful
I thought I was making a difference
Trying to strive for something better
But it seems I may have overvalued my worth
It seems no one cares about my words
All empty, all fluff
Better I guess, if I just shut up

Where do I go from here?
I’ve put in so much time and energy
And gotten nothing in return
As inconsequential as I’ve ever been
More invisible than ever

I’ve fallen back down into a pit of despair
Nowhere to go but up from here
I see where I need to go
But how do I get there?
No footholds, nothing to pull myself up
No hand to hold, no one to lift me up

Am I just a fool?
Delusional for thinking that things would play out differently?
Holding out hope that life would be better
Thinking that people would understand me more or treat me nicer
Am I just a fool?
For thinking there’d be more love and support
For thinking that just once I’d know how it felt to be appreciated?

It seems I’ve only set myself up for disappointment
A fool for expecting different
A fool for expecting better
It seems I’m just setting myself up to fail
Expectations not in line with reality

I should’ve known no one would care
“Watch their actions and not their words”
Something that I keep reminding myself
It’s something I’ve grown to know full well
They don’t care about the things I care about
They never have and they never will
Knowing that doesn’t make it any easier
Doesn’t make it hurt any less
In fact, it does the opposite

Makes it hard to stay focused
Makes it hard to continue on
Makes it hard to keep on dreaming
Makes it hard to pursue my goals
Where do I go from here?
Do I just keep on keeping on?

Am I just a fool?
Thinking that this would satisfy?
Thinking it’d be enough?
Am I just a fool?
Thinking that things would be different?
That I would find my worth?
Am I just a fool?
Thinking that people would listen for the first time ever?
Never been given the time of day
Doesn’t look like that will change