“Not good enough”
The thought that keeps running through my mind
“Not good enough”
The feeling that I just can’t shake
I used to think I could do this
Used to have so much confidence
But it’s run dry
And my patience is wearing thin

“Not good enough”
I know it ain’t true
But the longer I go without the desired results
The more my confidence gets run through
There’s a hole in my tank
It’s leaking continuously
As much as I try to make daily deposits
I can’t help but see I’m in the red

I’m losing more than I’m gaining
Losing all the progress I made
I used to have enough left to be resilient
Used to be able to lose a little, but gain even more
But it seems I’m just not good enough
The intrusive thought keeps winning out

“Not good enough”
It used to be just a whisper
But the more that I lose
The louder the voices get
“Not good enough, not good enough”
The quarter-life crisis continues
I used to have a vision
Thought it was lined up with reality
Thought it was attainable
But it seems that I was wrong
Oh boy, was I wrong

“You’re just not good enough”
The voices continue to say
I wish I was still able to drown them out
But it’s been so long since I’ve made meaningful gains
Been so long since I got a win
Even the smallest of things
To prop me up, to make me feel okay
I dunno how much more of this I can take
I’m running on empty
Feels like I have one foot in the grave
“Not good enough,” the common refrain