Category Archives: Loss

Changing, Heartbreak, Loss, Mindfulness, people, Poetry, Relationships, Self-Care, Self-Love

The Trust is Broken

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Your actions speak louder than your words
You say one thing but do another
You keep making plans but you never follow through
Your words are full of lies and empty promises

Why should I take you at your word if it is always so fleeting?
What you say today does not affect your tomorrow
You change your mind on a whim
What you say one day means nothing the next
So tell me, why should I trust you ever again?

Why should I believe what you say?
Your words are empty, they’re meaningless
Forever changing, over-promising & under-delivering
I’ve caught onto your tricks, I’m onto your ways

I won’t let you deceive me any longer
Your word it doesn’t mean shit
You lack integrity, dependability
I need to learn to expect the least (from you)
You’re no longer someone I can depend on

I wish things were different
But we’ve changed
Gone opposite ways
I can no longer trust you
I can’t rely on you

I wish it weren’t so
But the bond is broken
Never to be restored
It hurts to say that
But I’m moving on

I’ve already let you go
It’s time you did the same
I’ll forever cherish what we once had
But it’s gone for good
No matter what you do, things will never be the same
The trust is broken
The partnership ended
Time to go our separate ways

Brokenness, Death, Depression, Heartbreak, Loss, Music, Poetry

Sometimes Giants Fall

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Sometimes giants fall
Turns out our larger than life heroes and idols are mortal after all
We know that some day death will come for us all
There aren’t any exceptions
But it hardly makes it easier to bear
We don’t usually get time to prepare

The reaper will come
Father Time will call
God will bring us home
Death is undefeated, it is inevitable
We all know this
But it’s hard for us to internalize
Hard to accept, hard to understand

We keep asking ourselves, “Why” and, “Why now?”
How could someone who’s always been there simply be gone?
Here today and gone tomorrow
Hale and hearty quickly turns to sickly
This one hurts. It fills me with sorrow

Sometimes giants fall
Turns out our larger than life heroes and idols are mortal after all
Even darkness comes for the prince of darkness
There was no cheating death in the end
It hurts to say goodbye
It’ll be some time before I listen to a song of yours and not cry

Larger than life, we knew you by one name
The father of a genre, creator of a way of life
You gave a voice to the voiceless
Gave us a place where we belonged
Forever grateful for the legacy you left
Forever grateful for the impact you made

Sometimes giants fall
Turns out our larger than life heroes and idols are mortal after all
When you said goodbye on the stage—
We didn’t know it’d be goodbye forever
You went home
You closed your eyes forever
But you did it on your terms

I’m glad you’re no longer in pain
You gave it your all
You mean the world to us
Thank you for everything
The Prince of Darkness will live on in our hearts
We’ll never forget you
RIP Ozzy

Brokenness, Death, Heartbreak, Loss, people, Poetry

A Malevolent Sickness

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Sick of all the violence
Sick of all the pain
Sick of all the terror
When will it end?

Humanity has a problem
Sick and vile, evil and corrupt
An obsession and a fetish with fucking shit up
We’re taught that, “violence isn’t the answer”
But is that enough?

Every day I wake up
And I turn on the news
Yet another story of someone shooting up a school
When will it end?
When is enough enough?
Is no one else fed up?

Sick of all the violence
Sick of all the pain
Sick of all the heartache
When will it end?

Are our kids not important enough to us?
Do we not care enough?
Ban all automatic weapons
End of discussion, enough is enough
Such a weapon serves no other purpose than for killing en masse
Get that shit off the streets
Is that too much to ask?

Sick of all the violence
Sick of all the pain
Sick of all the sorrow
Here we go again

Come back and see
In another month or two
Yet another kid kills other kids in school
America has a problem
So evil and vile
So pervasive and ingrained in our culture and lifestyle
Until someone puts their foot down
Nothing is gonna change
So tell me, tell me, when will it end?

Heartbreak, Loss, Poetry

Eulogy/The Final Goodbye

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We didn’t know you for long
But we loved you a lot
Invested so much time and energy
Only for you to be given up
It wasn’t our choice
We wanted you with us

But sometimes people just do what they want
Regardless of if it’s their right
Regardless of who it may hurt
We wanted to adopt you, to give you a home
But the time wasn’t right for us
And now it’s run out

We didn’t know that it would
Thought there’d be as much as we wanted
But things don’t always go the way that we thought
People aren’t always aligned with us
They don’t always do what they’ve been told
They don’t always respect our wishes
Don’t always keep us in mind

I’ve learned that the hard way time after time
People are much more liable to act in self-interest
Sometimes it feels like altruism is just a myth
It’s disappointing to find
That those you found purest of heart
Give into their human nature time and again

I used to have hope that there was still good in this world
But seeing so much greed and selfishness I’m no longer so certain
Perhaps it was for the best that you were given away
You’d get someone’s full undivided attention
—Something that we weren’t able to give

It still hurts to see you go away
But it’ll become a little bit easier each subsequent day
I wish you the best
I hope they take care of you well
We didn’t get to say goodbye or wish you farewell
The decision was taken away from us
It’s something we’ll never forgive
But now that you’re gone
We wish you luck in your new home

Brokenness, Doubt, isolation, Loss, Mental Health, people, Poetry, Self-Care, Self-Love

Learning to Fly

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They say that, “if you love something, you should let it go”
To me, that’s just an excuse
It sounds better than, “honestly, I’d rather be alone”
No matter the case, you think you’d be better off on your own
I’m not here to judge, not here to condone
That’s not my business. I’m gonna mind my own

Not so hard to do, considering I’m often alone
Ignored, overlooked, pushed to the side
That’s always been the vibe
Sick of the disrespect, sick of the bad times
I’m letting go, freeing myself
Not gonna continue letting others dictate my worth
I know what I’m capable of, I know what I deserve

They say that, “if you love something, you should let it go”
I love myself too much to let them keep getting away with it
So I’m letting go, freeing myself
Putting distance between me and them
It’s the best thing for me
It’s the only way for me to find peace
Something that was taken from me

I’m letting go, saying goodbye
Finally, after all this time, I’m learning to fly
I’ve always been alone, always been on my own
Always thought I wanted to be part of a community
I thought I wanted to find my place in society
But perhaps that’s not what I needed, not what was for me

Maybe this is what was meant for me
Flying solo, flying freely
Unchained and unfettered
Free from the constraints of others’ expectations
After all this time, I’m learning to fly
I’m better on my own

I’m coming to peace
There’s no real place for me in society
But that’s perfectly fine
I’ll still continue to learn how to fly
They say that, “if you love something, you should let it go”
I love myself so much that I’m willing to let go

I’ve come to accept that I’m better on my own
Finally, after all this time, I’m learning to fly
I’ve grown weary and tired of being told what I’m capable of
I’m not going to continue letting them dictate my worth
Fuck that noise, I won’t let you limit me
I’ll learn how to fly, and I’m gonna thrive