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Lend Your Ear

Everyone always seems to have an opinion
Thinking that what they have to say matters most
Putting in their two cents when nobody asked
Whatever happened to lending an ear, to listening?
Whatever happened to speaking only when necessary?
Why is there a need to fill the void?
Why are words spoken when nothing need be said?

The silence can be deafening
But it can also be tranquil, full of peace
A reprieve from the fake news cycle
A brief moment of reflection and contemplation
A moment of silence where we can be together
Soak in each other’s presence and be at peace
You didn’t ask for my opinion, you didn’t ask me to speak
All you needed was an ear to hear
All you needed was for me to be there

So that is what I’ll give
If there’s more I can do, you’ll let me know
But I won’t make this about myself
I won’t say, “don’t worry. I’ve been there before.”
I won’t say, “I know your pain.”
I won’t equate my situation with yours

For even though there may be similarities
Our stories are not the same
Each one is unique
Each individual has different tools 
Each individual walks a different path
We have our similarities and our differences 
We can leave it at that

I will be there to comfort those who are hurting
I will be there to show that I care
I will listen first, and speak later
Because all I need to do is show that I’m there

The silence can be deafening, but no words need be spoken
I won’t fill the air with noise if you’re feeling broken
I will listen first, and embrace you afterwards
I will speak if necessary but I won’t prattle without a care
You know that I’ll be there
I’m always there to listen
Always willing to lend an ear

The silence may be deafening
But it’s better than words thrown around without care
Sometimes all you need is a shoulder to cry on
An ear to hear
Opinions don’t matter when all you need is care
So shut up and listen
Don’t feel the need to fill the air
Listen first and just be there
Lend your ear and go from there

Some Days

Some days it’s hard to will myself on
To keep pushing forward, to keep on going
I lose sight of my goals
And I can’t remember what I’m doing it for

This is the life I wanted
This was my passion and my dream
But sometimes I question
Whether or not I still want this
Whether or not I’m built for this
If this is worth my everything

Some days I wake up feeling empty
Wondering if this is what’s left for me
Some days I sleep in, dreading what’s in front of me
Sometimes it feels like I have to bear the weight of the world
Sometimes I feel buried under a mountain of expectations
Is the standard I hold myself to too high?
Am I trying too hard? Am I doing too much?

Where do I go from here?
The longer I toil without result
The harder it is to maintain my focus
Is there anything left for me?
Have I given all that I can give?
Did I start off too fast?
Have I burnt myself out?

The inspiration isn’t always there no more
The confidence comes and goes
I don’t always have the discipline to do what needs to be done
Sometimes I feel lost, drifting down a river of sadness
Some days it feels like I’ve lost all meaning
Just another day alone with my thoughts
Just another day trying to cope with my same struggles

I’m better than this!
I slew my demons!
I conquered my fears!
I swore that I became a different man!
I swore that I was changed
I swore that I matured and grew up
Grew out of my headcase phase

This was supposed to make me happy, supposed to satisfy
But some days it feels empty
Some days it feels meaningless
Some days I wish my life had been different
That I hadn’t been depressed
That I hadn’t been sad

But that’s part of my story, always has been and always will
Some days are harder than others
Some days it feels like I’m on the verge of relapse
But I have to do better, I have to do more
I have to keep on going for some day it will pay off

Seeing Ghosts

I keep dreaming about the past
Seeing things that happened
But in different ways
Recalling memories that didn’t come to pass
Which is real and which is fake?
Was a minor detail misremembered?
Is my subconscious trying to tell me something?

The recurring dreams are disturbing to say the least
Reminding me of what I used to think were better days
But better they were not
Different yes, but not better
They often say that, “ignorance is bliss”
A truer statement was never uttered

Things were different then
I was so stubborn, so stuck in my ways
Brainwashed and blinded to the truth
Life was easier then, when things were black and white
There was only one way to live, it was either us or them

But as I grow older I see the error in my ways
I see how misguided I had been
I can see how close-minded I was
I’ve changed and it’s only for the better

But sometimes when I dream I go back in time
I’m brought back to days of old
I re-experience past traumas
I go through the same frustrations
I encounter people that I have left in my past

I wake up unsettled and disturbed
I’ve been seeing ghosts
Reminders of what kind of person I used to be
I’ve vowed never to return to that
Never to be the judgmental asshole I once was

But easier said than done
My subconscious has a hard time letting go
A hard time shutting the door
A hard time saying goodbye to the people I used to know
I’ve been seeing ghosts

Reminded of who I used to be
Reminded of the hate that used to settle in my heart
Reminded of the false doctrine I had been told
That’s not who I am anymore, that will never come to be
In my waking I know this is not me
But my subconscious has a hard time letting go
I’ve been seeing ghosts, but that is all they will ever be

Out of Your Mouth

Get my name out of your mouth
I’ve done nothing to you
I’ve led my own existence off to the side
I’ve kept my distance from you
Out of the spotlight, hidden in the shadows
Minding my own business, doing my thing

I’ve been grinding away, working hard
Head down, focused
Had my sights set on my goals
I’ve had nothing more in mind
But my eye on the prize
Nothing will get in my way, nothing will distract me from this

Although you may try
There’s nothing between you and I
No relation, you mean nothing to me
Barely a blip on my mind
Get my name out of your mouth
I’ve done nothing to you

I’ve put my head down and focused on me
It’s best if you focus on you
Do better, be more than you are
A perpetual loser, someone who isn’t winning in life
I don’t know what I’ve done to make you so green
I don’t know what I’ve done to invoke envy

I’ve put my head down and focused on me
It’s best if you focus on you
Nothing I did was with you in mind
Nothing I did was to spite you
There’s nothing between you and I
Whatever disdain you feel was fabricated by you

I’m not around, so I’m easy to blame
A scapegoat for all your troubles
An easy target for you
Someone who can’t defend himself
You’re the source of untruth
I’m a bad guy, a public enemy

It’s easier for you to believe that
Than to do something real
Easier to blame me than to accept responsibility
To admit fault, to hold yourself accountable
Easier to blame me than to say sorry
Easier to blame me than to try to change and improve

There’s nothing between you and I
Get my name out of your mouth
I’ve done nothing to you
I’ve put my head down and focused on me
It’s best if you focus on you
I can’t wait for the day when we are through

First Impressions

A grifter and a snake
A liar and a cheat
You showed us your true colors
And you’re not the man we thought you were

At first you were kind
At first you were caring
At first you were loving and full of charity
We thought you great
We thought you mighty
We thought you were for the people

But you are none of this
Mediocre at best
No better than the rest
Just a small man with even smaller dreams
Lazy and useless
Ambitionless, without drive

You showed us something different
You showed us something superior, at first
We thought you were like us
Striving for better, trying harder
Looking to be the best version you could be

But that was the truth only for a time
I must applaud you
You got one over on us
You tricked us, you lied
You sold us on a version of yourself that no longer exists
You made a good first impression 
And for you that was all that mattered

But we can see through the static, we know what you are
A grifter and a snake
A liar and a cheat
Someone who no longer tries
You’ve grown lazy and fat
Accepted your station

Ambitionless, without drive
Caring about no one but yourself
But not even caring enough
To better yourself, to take good care
A puny boy who needs a hand to hold
Someone who never grew up
You are what you are, a “man” mired in mediocrity

We don’t need that energy, we’d like to move on
You got one over on us before
Blinded us to the truth
But we’ve seen your true colors
And that’s all we need to see
A grifter and a snake
A liar and a cheat