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Dreamkiller

You never understood me, you never really tried
It’s fine though because I stopped lamenting it long ago
Always been the black sheep, always been misunderstood
Never gonna fit in, not fully
Never part of the family, not really
I’m fine with it, I really am

But the least you could do is have my back
The least you could do is try to care
Pretend that you supported me in my endeavors
You never gave me what I needed
Only gave me what you could spare
It was never what was right
And it was never good enough

You always were a dreamkiller
Never taking me seriously
Never thinking me capable
Never letting me grow into the man I was meant to be
Never letting me breathe, never letting me dream

You have a close-minded view of reality
Only accepting two ways to live
You told me I could either be A or B
But what if I wanted to be C?

I’ve always been different
I didn’t think that was hard to see
I marched to the beat of my own drum
Even as a kid, even when I was young

You never could relate, and I don’t blame you for that
But you never tried to understand
All you did was suppress and discourage
I can’t forgive you for that
You’re a dreamkiller, and a heartbreaker
Never let me pursue my passions
Never helped fuel my ambition

You only gave me what you wanted to give, never what I needed
Never understood that all I needed was just one person on my side
One person who pushed me to reach new heights
Just one person to tell me that I was good enough
One person to say, “I’m with you, whatever it takes.”
I didn’t think I was asking for much
But evidently, the bare minimum is expecting too much

I don’t need you to see it from my perspective
We don’t need to see eye to eye
You and I are different
Our paths will never realign

Coming to you was a mistake
This I should’ve learned
You never had my back before
Why would things be different now?
I knew better than to let you do this to me again
I knew better than to rely on you for anything
I tried to forget, I tried to forgive, I really did

You haven’t changed, not one bit
But I did
I’m not the same meek child I used to be
I’m no longer lost and uncertain
I’m forging my own path, making my own way
I know what I’m aiming for, I know where I’m headed
If you’re not going to support me, then get out of my way

I told you what I needed
I told you what I wanted
I told you what I expected from you
But it’s gone clean through
In one ear and out the other
It’s clear to me that you haven’t been listening
It’s clear to me that my voice hasn’t been heard

You just do what you always do
Control & manipulate
Always seeking to have your way
Always thinking that you know best
You’re a dreamkiller, a heartbreaker
Toxic energy that drains

My teachers told me that I could be whoever I wanted to be
But that I never believed
I wasn’t allowed to dream
No, that wasn’t the way
You can be this or that, but never that
“You’ll do as I say”

I did that for a time
But it never made me happy, it never satisfied
It never made me feel confident or good enough
Never could live up

But I’m better than that now, I know who I am
Pleasing you is an ever moving target
And that’s not who I am
Not a people pleaser, not a doormat
I am who I am, an independent thinker, a dreamer
Someone who’s building a life where only greatness will suffice

I’ve said all that I needed to say
I’ve made my peace
I’m leaving you behind, you won’t keep doing this to me
Dreamkiller, heartbreaker
Toxic energy that drains

I tried to be patient, I tried to be kind
I gave you many chances to change
To show me that you were on my side
But it’s the same ole shit over and over
I can no longer let it slide
I didn’t wanna do this, but this is goodbye

I Want You to Stay

I want you to stay
But you have no reason to
Why would you stay?
If I’m no good for you

I’ve taken all of you, and I’ve used you up
But I haven’t given you nearly enough
I haven’t given you all of my time
I haven’t put in enough of my effort

I want you to stay
But why would you want to?
I want you to stay
But I can’t force you to

You’ve put up with my shit
Given me every chance
Told me what needs to change if we are to last
I said things would be different, but I didn’t try

I want you to stay
We were supposed to be forever and ever, you and I
But the story has ended, it’s time to move on
Unfortunately for us we are a thing of the past

On My Own Again

This was always going to be the outcome, wasn’t it?
I don’t know how to love
I don’t know how to give
I don’t know how to be good to someone else
I can’t even be good to myself

On my own again
Nowhere to be and nowhere to go
I’ve never been a friendly person
I’ve never been all that nice
I tried to give you a part of me
And you always gave me all of you
It was never going to be enough

I don’t know what it means to sacrifice
I don’t know how to show love
I don’t know how to be a human being
I don’t know how to be a friend, son, lover
It’s all so fucked up

I know that I need to do better
I want to believe that I can
But you gave me so many chances
And I’ve used them all up

I said time and time again
That I would do better
That I would try harder
I know I fucked up
I let the fire go out
I let the relationship die

You put the blame on me
And how can I deny that?
I needed to be better
I needed to show growth
Show you that things could change

But zilch, nada, nope
Still the same old me
Unable to love, unable to provide
You deserve someone better
Someone that doesn’t lie
Doesn’t lie to you, doesn’t lie to himself
Doesn’t lie to the world

So I’m on my own again
Wanting to be better than who I’ve always been
But unable to do so
I should let you go
Because I deserve to be alone

Pain Ends

In my heart of hearts I knew it was over
Over before we had begun
We had lost another battle
In a war we never could’ve won

We held out hope
Believing in something, anything, nothing
We were foolish and naive
Believing there was something to fight for or someone

In my heart of hearts I knew it was over
Over before we had begun
We had lost another battle
In a war we never could’ve won

We rode to the battlefield
Woefully unprepared
We thought we could find comfort
Somewhere, over there, nowhere

In my heart of hearts I knew it was over
Over before we had begun
We had lost another battle
In a war we never could’ve won

We were hopeful and hoping
Waiting for a hero
Wishing upon a falling star
Holding out for any semblance of hope

In my heart of hearts I knew it was over
Over before we had begun
We had lost another battle
In a war we never could’ve won

Hope dies, good will fades
The hero never came, the wish did not come true
The outlook was grim, grim as can be, blue
The sky was red with blood, the sun weeped

In my heart of hearts I knew it was over
Over before we had begun
We had lost another battle
In a war we never could’ve won

Hope dies, pain ends
The moon falls out of the sky
Hope dies, love fades
The end is nigh
Hope dies, pain ends
The sun cries out
Hope dies, love fades
The end is come
It was over before we had begun
It had been meaningless from the start
Hope dies, pain ends, love fades
We are done