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Changing, Heartbreak, Loss, Mindfulness, people, Poetry, Relationships, Self-Care, Self-Love

The Trust is Broken

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Your actions speak louder than your words
You say one thing but do another
You keep making plans but you never follow through
Your words are full of lies and empty promises

Why should I take you at your word if it is always so fleeting?
What you say today does not affect your tomorrow
You change your mind on a whim
What you say one day means nothing the next
So tell me, why should I trust you ever again?

Why should I believe what you say?
Your words are empty, they’re meaningless
Forever changing, over-promising & under-delivering
I’ve caught onto your tricks, I’m onto your ways

I won’t let you deceive me any longer
Your word it doesn’t mean shit
You lack integrity, dependability
I need to learn to expect the least (from you)
You’re no longer someone I can depend on

I wish things were different
But we’ve changed
Gone opposite ways
I can no longer trust you
I can’t rely on you

I wish it weren’t so
But the bond is broken
Never to be restored
It hurts to say that
But I’m moving on

I’ve already let you go
It’s time you did the same
I’ll forever cherish what we once had
But it’s gone for good
No matter what you do, things will never be the same
The trust is broken
The partnership ended
Time to go our separate ways

Brokenness, Death, Depression, Heartbreak, Loss, Music, Poetry

Sometimes Giants Fall

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Sometimes giants fall
Turns out our larger than life heroes and idols are mortal after all
We know that some day death will come for us all
There aren’t any exceptions
But it hardly makes it easier to bear
We don’t usually get time to prepare

The reaper will come
Father Time will call
God will bring us home
Death is undefeated, it is inevitable
We all know this
But it’s hard for us to internalize
Hard to accept, hard to understand

We keep asking ourselves, “Why” and, “Why now?”
How could someone who’s always been there simply be gone?
Here today and gone tomorrow
Hale and hearty quickly turns to sickly
This one hurts. It fills me with sorrow

Sometimes giants fall
Turns out our larger than life heroes and idols are mortal after all
Even darkness comes for the prince of darkness
There was no cheating death in the end
It hurts to say goodbye
It’ll be some time before I listen to a song of yours and not cry

Larger than life, we knew you by one name
The father of a genre, creator of a way of life
You gave a voice to the voiceless
Gave us a place where we belonged
Forever grateful for the legacy you left
Forever grateful for the impact you made

Sometimes giants fall
Turns out our larger than life heroes and idols are mortal after all
When you said goodbye on the stage—
We didn’t know it’d be goodbye forever
You went home
You closed your eyes forever
But you did it on your terms

I’m glad you’re no longer in pain
You gave it your all
You mean the world to us
Thank you for everything
The Prince of Darkness will live on in our hearts
We’ll never forget you
RIP Ozzy

Heartbreak, Loss, Poetry

Eulogy/The Final Goodbye

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We didn’t know you for long
But we loved you a lot
Invested so much time and energy
Only for you to be given up
It wasn’t our choice
We wanted you with us

But sometimes people just do what they want
Regardless of if it’s their right
Regardless of who it may hurt
We wanted to adopt you, to give you a home
But the time wasn’t right for us
And now it’s run out

We didn’t know that it would
Thought there’d be as much as we wanted
But things don’t always go the way that we thought
People aren’t always aligned with us
They don’t always do what they’ve been told
They don’t always respect our wishes
Don’t always keep us in mind

I’ve learned that the hard way time after time
People are much more liable to act in self-interest
Sometimes it feels like altruism is just a myth
It’s disappointing to find
That those you found purest of heart
Give into their human nature time and again

I used to have hope that there was still good in this world
But seeing so much greed and selfishness I’m no longer so certain
Perhaps it was for the best that you were given away
You’d get someone’s full undivided attention
—Something that we weren’t able to give

It still hurts to see you go away
But it’ll become a little bit easier each subsequent day
I wish you the best
I hope they take care of you well
We didn’t get to say goodbye or wish you farewell
The decision was taken away from us
It’s something we’ll never forgive
But now that you’re gone
We wish you luck in your new home

Art, Brokenness, Changing, Heartbreak, Loss, people, Poetry, Relationships

Growing Apart

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You ain’t gonna do this to me again
I’m not gonna let you keep hurting me like you do
I’ve shown you nothing but loyalty
But no one is ever loyal to me
I’m tired of it
Just so worn down
So damn sick of it all

I wish I didn’t feel this way
So utterly betrayed
But what can I say?
How can I feel any other way?
I’ve watched your actions
And this is what you’ve shown
We were together once, but now I’m on my own

You can say that I didn’t give enough
Or I didn’t care enough
Or that I didn’t do enough for you
But I gave you everything I could at the time
I just wasn’t equipped back then to love the way that I do (now)
I didn’t have the tools to give you what you needed

I’m afraid it’s too late now
The ship has sailed and we’ve gone too far
We’ve drifted too far apart to rescue who we were
What we had once is now too far gone
I can’t believe it came to this:
Saying goodbye
Bidding farewell to what we once had

This whole time I thought you’d be by my side
That we would lift each other up, build a life and thrive
I didn’t think it’d come to this
Get to a point where I’d question your loyalty
Come to a place where I’d have to decide between you or me

I never thought we’d drift this far
Find ourselves at a crossroads where we no longer aligned
I’m sorry but I have to do what’s best for me
Here’s where we part ways
You’ll go your way and I’ll go mine

There’s no way for us to keep growing together
So we’ll only just grow apart
Best if we just cut ties now
It’ll only get harder moving forward
Might as well just call it quits
I don’t wanna do it, and it’ll hurt my soul
But I don’t see any other way for this to end
Where we end is where I begin

Loss, Poetry, Relationships, Writing

Two Minds

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How can I have so much bitterness in my heart?
Angry and upset about someone I cared about for so long
I know we’ve had some issues in the recent past
I’m not afraid to admit that
I find that I’m still loyal to you
And would like to be until the end

But you need to do more, care more, give more
I feel like I’ve given you all I’ve got
And I haven’t received the same in return
At one point we saw eye to eye
But you’ve given me less and less
And I fear we’re drifting apart

I’d like to care less
I’d like to focus more on me
And spend less time on you
But even still I care about you, and want you still

The specter of disappointment lingers behind you
You haven’t met my expectations in a long while
We were giving as much to each other as we gave to ourselves
And I long for that still
I wish that were still the dynamic
But alas, things have changed

I accept that and it’s okay
I just have to approach with more caution
But my loyalty gets in the way
I can’t deprive myself of helping you
My feelings are mixed in that way

I still want to see things through
I still want to be good to you
But my bitterness gets in the way
I can’t seem to tame my rage
I can’t seem to overcome the pain of disappointment
Can’t seem to express to you the way that I feel

So this will have to do
I’m of two minds
I want to continue being good to you
But I also want to beat the shit out of you
I want to keep helping you
But what do I get out of it?
Increasingly less

I’m not asking for your undivided attention
Just for some in part
I’m not asking for your full commitment
Just for a little devotion
I’m not asking you to go along for the whole ride
Just that sometimes you would be by my side

Not asking for your love and affection
Just a brief moment of your time
I know you’re busy but I’ve set aside time for you
I expected you to do the same

I’m of two minds
Part of me wants to end it
I mean what’s in it for me?
But part of me doesn’t wanna rock the boat
We had something good for so long
I had only hoped for it to become more strong

It seems I must’ve misread the situation
I was much more devoted to you than you were to me
I sit here and long for what we once had
It seems like such a long time ago
Maybe we can recover and move on
Or maybe this is just a thing of the past